hatred much?

Wow,
the beginning of my moms sobriety was a tough time for me I guess.
I was really bitter about everything, and I look back now and I can't help but feel as if I was being selfish.
I guess I have changed a lot in the last few months, and I'm hoping its for the better.

Since that last blog, Most of the damage from the past has healed itself.
I love my mom again, and that is definitely a great feeling.
Some people may think, how do you love your mom again? Isn't that a love that isn't supposed to go away? But mine did, don't ask questions about it, becuase I won't explain, it just did okay?

My mom has been sober for 5 months. Wow. 5 months. I can't begin to tell you how proud of her I am. Its amazing to have my mom back in my life.
But in a bittersweet sort of way
because, in 25 days, she is another person that I'm going to have to say goodbye to.

I keep telling everyone else, that I don't see the big deal its a few miles down the street
but I know its a big deal
and goodness gracious am I getting scaredd
but, i never think about the fear, because im just so darn excited most of the time

gahh. all these emotions running through my body cant be good for myself
but whateverrr, were only human :]

6 days til breaking dawn
i'll be partying nerd status yo!