Growth

I've literally just gone through EVERY post I've posted on here since I started this blog. I'm in a reflective mode right now, and I firmly believe that you can't grow if you don't know what you need to change, and this blog is a perfect example of my life that has been changing.

Its kind of surprising really. I mean honestly, when I think about it, when I came home from camp last year, everyone asked how it was, and the only word I could think of was 'life changing' and then I would think in my head, but only if I'm willing to do the work

Quite honestly, there is a LOT more work that I can do to better myself, but just by reading my thoughts from almost three years ago to now, I KNOW that my life is constantly changing and evolving, and I'm very sure that I'm headed in the right direction.

Thinking about camp makes me so happy. I can't wait to go this year, seriously. With this new group of people that I am fortunate enough to call friends?! It's going to be amazing. So. Freaking. Amazing.

I can't believe my thought process from a few years ago. I think I was in a really dark place, and I think I'm finally out and standing in the sun. I've had some serious issues, but I've slowly but surely started working through them. I can't wait to see how much more I change until camp and then after camp this year. :D

He is my portion, and I am His prize.

I was thinking about this song this morning, and I just.. I don't know, I feel somewhat unsettled? They aren't kidding when they say that the farther you get into the Word, the farther you feel away from God.

I mean honestly, I feel like God gets shafted A LOT of the time. I mean, He gets to be my portion. AS in, he is absolutely everything that I need. Whatever I need, He provides for me. But.. I am His prize? What kind of prize am I? I'm no better then anyone else, obviously, but.. What is it that makes me His prize? I lie, I cuss, I definitely don't read my bible everyday, and there are times where I just don't want to live my life for Him. Sometimes I want to be of this world and not living for Him.

God's seriously getting shafted, but I can change that. I don't need to make Him get the short end of the stick. I can live my life for Him. I can read my bible, I can talk to Him on a regular basis. I'm done shafting my Father. He deserves more then that from me :]

and we prayed

We had a rando dance party tonight with my college group. Like when I say random I mean it was planned at 2pm this afternoon. Why? Because Britney spears released a new song. That's relly it. Sometimes we just do stuff like that. So we danced and acted like fools and laughed, and at the end we prayed. Because that's what we do as a body of believers. We give thanks and stand in a circle and hold hands and that God for our blessings. And let me tell you, we have a lot to be thankful for. I know I do :)

Who I am?!

I've been trying to figure out how to word my profile for Christian Mingles for the longest time. Most of the time my about me sections are full of clever little one liners that I've probably stolen from someone else. And they are allllll full of sarcasm. And I don't think that is going to go over well with someone who is looking for a relationship, but then of course I backtrack and I'm like, wait a freaking minute here, they need to like me for Who I am.

I'm so bad at this crap. hahah