college times :]

this deserves its own seperate post, because it is going to make me happy.

college. is so freaking amazing. Like, i seriously have no words to describe how much fun I am having.
its reallly sad to say, but yesterday was the first day that I actually missed my mom. It was kind of sad, and if effected me a lot, because the whole day turned out to be crap, that night however was a different story.

so, I was going to go to the FUNR party with lyn, but then... i was like. blehh im tired I dont wanna. Really I just wanted to stay home and be depressed. I was wallowing in self pity because I got a ''c'' on my bio test, and matt was being as ass ( i fell like i have to distinguish between matts, even for myself now. This is getting confusing. but were talking about kosmala here :]) and soooo. he was just being an ass, so that pissed me off. so i was like. eff that, i dont wanna party.
well, then i was talking to d'andre and he said something about a blacklight party, and i was like. oh, sounds like fun. but i was hesitant. i still reallly didnt want to go out.
Then I talked to Nikki, and she convinced me, but instead of going to parties we were just gunna hang out in a friends room and then walk around on the strip.

it was so vegas-y, i couldnt resist. lol. I love pretending I havent lived here most of my life. its so much fun. lol.

I had fun, minus the whole drama bs, but as long as you can get past it, then it was enjoyable lol

RPC, is like, making my life.
I seriously think I would be so freaking bored and sick of school right now if it wasnt for the homecoming committee. These people are some of the most amazing people ever. no lie.

goshhhh. im just loving life right now. its so amazingg.
<333333

irritated

so it really irritates me when people read that paper that i wrote, and they were like, oh hunny if we would have known it was this bad we would have done something about it.
ohhh really? then wtf did you just think it was just a teenager fighting with their mom everytime I talked to you?
seriously. dont try and pull that.
its over and its done with
dont tell me what you would have done if you would have known
that stupid little word if
its already happened
its not going to change.
I don't want your stupid sympathy now, its over and its done with. I dont want the damn pity party. I want to live my life, love my mom and enjoy her sobriety.
gah. its just annoying. stupid promises and all that retardedness. like. come on, seriously.
ugh.
i probably dont make any sense, but whatever.

okayy so like

i wish my titles were as wittty as jacobs in breaking dawn
hahaha

dude... i cant wait til the movie.. its like.. 75ish days. how exciting is that?
SUPERRRR EXCITING!!!

hahaha. im bored. lol
and im procrastinating on homework
im kind of, really excited to write that paper now
hehe

college life. :]

my dorm room is absolutely adorable :]
My roomate just moved in, a few days ago, but she really hasnt spent the night yet.
But we've talked a few times and she seems really cool, very down to earth.
She said shes not going to be spending too many nights here becuase shes with family and with friends most of the time. so i pretty much still have my own room

And its still clean
woooot wooot :]
hahaha
im super proud of myself, like you have no idea.
I didnt make my bed yesterday though, so i felt kind of off, it was odd. then i took a nap and i felt better

so my classes are all good. i know someone in all of my classes.
all of my professors seem really cool. lol
i can barely understand my math teacher, but the online thing is pretty simple to understand, so ill be okay i guess. lol

sooo, so far so good :]
lovee it all

woohoo

im sure theres tons of stuff i could write
but nothing i wanna fully write out right now. lol

maybee later

first from my dorm. waiit whatt?

heckk yess dudeeee

first post from my dorm :]

its snazzy. lol

WOOOOhooo:]

eeeeep

15 hours :]

im so excited.

but if i think too hard i get super close to tears, so i just try to think of all the fun im gunna have.
I know that as soon as they walk away, im going to bawl my eyes out.

i hope i can stop crying before matt gets there. lol

ive promised myself, like right now at this very moment that im not gunna let them see me cry.

This is going to be hard enough for them, so, I need to be strong :]