blessings <3

extremely blessed today.and, its only 7 am, look at that.About this time as little as a year ago my sister and I would be awake trying to get everyone else in the house awake, so that we could open presents.But, the gifts are still wrapped and I'm letting everyone sleep in, because as thankful as I am for the gifts that are under the tree, I know the true reason we are celebrating today.I'm all sorts of sappy and emotional, probably from lack of sleep, but mostly because today means a lot to me.Not only do I know what Christmas is about, but my mom, is sober. For the first Christmas in a LONG TIME.I know that when she wakes up this morning, I don't have to look at her eyes to see how much I have to hide in my room today. I won't have to hope that she drinks enough Bailey's in her coffee to keep her happy all day instead of getting all weird and emotional. I know, that I'm going to have so much fun with my FAMILY today, and it's all because I'm blessed. It's only by the grace of God that I can enjoy this Christmas, and I thank Him from the bottom of my heart.I really hope that everyone knows the true meaning of Christmas, and if you don't, then look it up, get out a bible and read the book of Luke. Read how Christ was born, and never forget that he died for our sins.Merry Christmas to all of my Family and Friends, I love you all soo very much.<3

kevin jonas

neeeds to spend his 21st bday in vegas
he can buy the malibu rum, ill provide the pineapple juice and the entertainment.. free of charge ;]

goodness that boy looks freaking hot as hell sometimes, i swearrrr it could just be like, a phase im going through at the moment..




hahaa, now that ive let all that goo.
im bored
as helll
sitting in my room, while pretty much everyone else on the floor is out, at the mansion party.
but my parents are retarded. i dont know how its their fault that im not at theparty, but.. it is.
haha

they annoy the hell out of me sometimes. its ridiculous. i just want to scream sometimes i swear.
i dont even live with them anymore, and i just want to screaammmm. ergh.
im so bored im mumbling. its ridiculous.
blahh.
im gunna go read somemore :]

just a vent

some people worry me with certain things
like, i know my parents always say i have no common sense and whatnot, but really, i beg to differ.
sometimes, i act silly, and dont get certain things right away, but eventually i swear i do
hehe a little edit now that this is public :]
seriously?
you can't find a building on your own?
i dont even know why its irritating me so much, except for the fact that this is probably how my parents feel about me sometimes.
a little common sense goes a long way, and they dont seem to follow that i have more common sense then a lot of my friends
or maybe its just, my independence that i have gotten since ive moved out

but still, like, you cant find your own psych trailer. it has me seriously worried though... because really it shouldnt be that hard.
but ill get over it soon i guess. haha

homecoming week

this seems to be the best spot to put this because i really dont want to censor my memories, so im not gunna put it on myspace.

monday :]
--kickoff. Rise and shine early, but it wasnt too bad. i really didnt sleeep at all that night, because i guess i was just, insanely excited. haha. we got up, started on the balloon arch, made sure everything went well and what not. it really wasnt stressful, just meeting with the judges was kind of nuts. haha
--foam party. it seemed like everything that could have gone wrong, did. It was insane. I honestly think we were just all exhausted, and stressed and worried about how the rest of the week was going to go. And to top it all off, we were freezing like no other. but it was a ton of fun, and it was super warm in the foam. i cant wait to go to the computer in the sia offices and take all the foam party pics off of there and put it on myspace. lol

tuesday :]
--rebels after dusk. insane fun, like no lie. we were stressed, but excited. i started off with snowcones, then moved to check in, and then over to games, and then kind of stopped working. i was so tired from being in the office and runnign around like a nutter that i just didnt go anywhere. lol. then we played around and danced on the stage. i took a picture with a creeper, and he was taking pictures with like, everyone. he was nuts. lol
clean up was fun. we all seemed to bond more on tuesday then anything. idk why, it just seemed to happen that way. lol
wednesday :]
--the variety show. the show went well :] there were only a few cues that were off, but it was all good. the stage fell, but everything went smoothly. i was happy with everything
thursday :]
--the rally, and yay for getting to leave early
friday :]
--nothing but paperwork. but it was still fun like woah :]
saturday :]
--paradeee up super early. matt to the rescue with doughnuts and coffee. bless his soul :]
it was a chill day, and everything went well. im glad its all over though. no lie, im exhausted, but it was all so worth it.
im so excited to wear regular clothes next week instead of unlv shirts all freaking week long. lolll.

some quotes that i will try to remember, and ill add as i think of them

matt : Follow me Tasha.
tasha: Where are we going?
m: no where, you are just following me.

m: i'm the leader, you walk behind me. not in front, not to the side, behind.
t: am i not worthy of walking next to you?
M: nope
(he means it in the most loving wayy i swear.)

d-rex- nice stars on your pants
everyone else- uhm, creeper?




haha and our nicknames. lmfao
d-rex- donovan nichols
asian persuasion- donovan kaneshiro
big bird- matt cooney
rad girl- krista
fanny pack sassy pants - annie
meanie mouse-- nikki
t-bomb/ ear nazi- mee
boots- stephanie mejia
cranky pants - gregory patton
tink-heather england

college times :]

this deserves its own seperate post, because it is going to make me happy.

college. is so freaking amazing. Like, i seriously have no words to describe how much fun I am having.
its reallly sad to say, but yesterday was the first day that I actually missed my mom. It was kind of sad, and if effected me a lot, because the whole day turned out to be crap, that night however was a different story.

so, I was going to go to the FUNR party with lyn, but then... i was like. blehh im tired I dont wanna. Really I just wanted to stay home and be depressed. I was wallowing in self pity because I got a ''c'' on my bio test, and matt was being as ass ( i fell like i have to distinguish between matts, even for myself now. This is getting confusing. but were talking about kosmala here :]) and soooo. he was just being an ass, so that pissed me off. so i was like. eff that, i dont wanna party.
well, then i was talking to d'andre and he said something about a blacklight party, and i was like. oh, sounds like fun. but i was hesitant. i still reallly didnt want to go out.
Then I talked to Nikki, and she convinced me, but instead of going to parties we were just gunna hang out in a friends room and then walk around on the strip.

it was so vegas-y, i couldnt resist. lol. I love pretending I havent lived here most of my life. its so much fun. lol.

I had fun, minus the whole drama bs, but as long as you can get past it, then it was enjoyable lol

RPC, is like, making my life.
I seriously think I would be so freaking bored and sick of school right now if it wasnt for the homecoming committee. These people are some of the most amazing people ever. no lie.

goshhhh. im just loving life right now. its so amazingg.
<333333

irritated

so it really irritates me when people read that paper that i wrote, and they were like, oh hunny if we would have known it was this bad we would have done something about it.
ohhh really? then wtf did you just think it was just a teenager fighting with their mom everytime I talked to you?
seriously. dont try and pull that.
its over and its done with
dont tell me what you would have done if you would have known
that stupid little word if
its already happened
its not going to change.
I don't want your stupid sympathy now, its over and its done with. I dont want the damn pity party. I want to live my life, love my mom and enjoy her sobriety.
gah. its just annoying. stupid promises and all that retardedness. like. come on, seriously.
ugh.
i probably dont make any sense, but whatever.

okayy so like

i wish my titles were as wittty as jacobs in breaking dawn
hahaha

dude... i cant wait til the movie.. its like.. 75ish days. how exciting is that?
SUPERRRR EXCITING!!!

hahaha. im bored. lol
and im procrastinating on homework
im kind of, really excited to write that paper now
hehe